“The only true painful goodbyes are the ones that never said and never explained.”

random update!

it has been a tremendous change in my life in 2011. from a student to a full time working adult.

GOSH. i feel myself is getting old. hopefully my maturity is growing as well.

time flies! i have been stationed in singapore for 6months. I met different kinds of people here, different nationality and different races.

im gonna upload some pics that i might not upload in Facebook.

enjoy the pics i took in the 2011 :)

11. Breaking Dawn Soundtrack - Flightless Bird, American Mouth (Wedding ...

Colbie Caillat - I Never Told You

i miss everything about u..can't believe that I still want u..
and after all the things we've been through..
I miss EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU,
Without You!!!

Singapore Zoo Outing

long time didnt update my bloggie d..its the time to use a little bit time for me to rant here..
i just realise my typing speed is actually very fast..
uhmm..i got a job but it aint actually the job that i prefer..but life is always unexpected..
the one u want the most will always not yours..
it's design and application engineer for a consultancy firm..
i think its kinda bored working in an office..
i am still very free at the moment..still waiting for my employment date then i can start working as an engineer!!!
last sunday, i went to zoo singapore..
didnt snap much photos as the animals only the main character..lol
went with my sister and her bf..then i dragged kenny along also..
afterward we went to Ang Mo Kio Hub to meet up with Jessie for dinner..she went to class therefore she didnt join us to zoo..so we were chit chatting and of coz camwhored since i got nothing much to talk with them..and i was really tired too.

Brand New Chapter!

today is the 15th day i was here..

finally i've fallen sick..argh..sore throat headache stomachache and flu..

all pls go away! im gonna start working soon..

so sleepy right now..but i have to do a little update for my bloggie..

at least post up some pics which i didnt upload in my fb..

cant everything also share in fb..needa keep something private in my fb nowadays..lol

went to a few places..u guys always see me with high heels but here i got no choice which i cant wear high heels coz i needa take mrt and walk alot.. T.T
no more high heels! =(

yesterday i cooked dinner for my sister and her bf..he came over for spaghetti..hehe..

i didnt have brocolli so it was just a simple chicken spaghetti bolognese..

hhahaha..spot the differences!i also can cook very well wan... =p

so this is why im quite busy lately..
and i gotta work right after my work pass approves..
needa wake up at 6am..arghhhh... x.x

=(

i can only say
life sucks!i cant get used to everything here..
i miss kl..i miss the people there..
T.T
i wanna go back!i hope to go back asap..
i cried badly last night..i think i really need some frens here..
who wanna come over sg pls buzz me..!!!let's hang out!

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will update more often in tumblr..

Restart

it's like after so long..finally i got the time to do a little update..

life has been busy and great..

nothing much special..passed through the very busy and hectic life with all the projects and assignments..

it's terrible for me coz i was totally stressed out!

and i totally got to know the truth..guess it's a good start for me and im currently looking for a full time job..

i wanna work as engineer also!lol

Strangers, again

the happiest thing for today is shopping.

--to be continued.

hahahaha..i look nerd here right?without any make up on..lol

well..it's 4.18am now but im here still wanna blog a little bit..

erm..i still have 2more weeks..i must be strong to get through all the obstacles..

life's been busy..and im really tired..

sick and fever..

i know i have to go through all the pain myself..

nobody can help me..

i dun want to let any of them worry about me anymore..

i love my family and my friends..

i appreciate everyone no matter you're close to me or just my HI-BYE's frens..

u asked me it's easier if i hate you..

well..it's been a month..i nvr hate you though maybe you are the one who hates me the most..

erm..maybe it's the time for me to let go totally..

i know you told me that we're still friends but you never treat me as a friend..

and you really misunderstood about me..

i really nvr nvr think to get back with u or anything..

i just feel that it's too bad that we bcoz of a week and spoiled the friendship..

aint its good that we maintain as friends or close friends since you're really nvr like me..

but all things cant turn back..my ex also told me how he wished that all these nvr happened but it's impossible..

he doesnt love anymore and same as you..

ermm..i wont say anything anymore..i will just let go everything starts from now..

i know you hate me..it's okay..

thats why i told you i dun wanna aimei with you coz someday i will turn to yr enemy..

i'm tired..i replied yr tweet in twitter coz i tot it was just nothing..i nvr hope to get any replies from u..

coz i just wanted to console you and i only act as your fren..

and i know whats called KEEPING DISTANCE..from break up til now,you only whatsapp me telling me to break..

it's so unfair to me..you nvr listened to me..

the one who asked me to become yr gf was you too..but the one who asked to break also YOu..

this is my own little blog..i just want to blurt out my feeling..

i'm alright..dun worryy..

good night..sugar dreams!

tomorrow definitely will be a better day..well i enjoy my current life very much..at least i know who's really good to me and sayang me..

arghhh..im so tired!nitez peepz!

my heart is really pain..help..im so sad..dunno why..

Yiruma I'm Just A

That's LIFE!

a plain fact of human relationships is this: People come and people go.

some people are just compatible become your friends and you will never think to get closer with them..

some people are only can keep them as your bestie whom you may think to share everything to him/her and you will never think to further any friendship..they will always be there for you whenever you feel down and they will wipe yr tear off..

you might think to get him/her as your partner but the thing that hold you back is that you know friendship can last forever while u cant guarantee he/she will be your last one..

Someone that we have loved with all of our hearts one day can, quite literally, vanish from our lives the next...

not necessarily from death. Not even from rancor..

sometimes simple circumstance can take a best friend, a lover or a partner right out of your hands, never to be seen again.

flashed back those old memories,i feel so thankful to him..he had taught me to stay stronger and i learned to view things from different perspectives..time cant fly back but what you can do is learning to appreciate the ones who you got right now..

people come and people go, satisfying a need for love and companionship in your life,or teaching you something you need to know..

luckily, a few people will stick around for a lifetime. But most are just here for a season..

maybe two...

and that’s OK, because even though the physicality is gone, the love you created remains. Always..

enough of crapping for today..will come back to update again when it's the time..this is my random thought when i got up on this sunday morning..

here's just started raining again...i shall continue my works and im gonna pamper myself with good foods after so many days of hardwork...

last but not least,i want to express my gradtitute to the ones who helped me alot..i love u guys!!!

we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them...

thank q so much for having me,and for letting my ideas and thoughts come into your lives...

it has been both a pleasure and a joy... =p

Bruno Mars - Today My Life Begins + Lyrics (HD)

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin'
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I've learnt how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bruno_mars/today_my_life_begins.html ]
I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life's too short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
I know I can make it, today my life begins
Today my life begins...

Apology

I'm so sorry that i didn't know that you dun like it..

and i didnt know you cant still take it..

erm i guess i know what to do d now..

if you dun like it,just tell me straightforward..

i must not to repeat my mistake anymore..

im getting tired..i really hope the thing like today wont happen anymore..

u know who you are and what im talking about..

sorry i didnt know it will piss u off!

sorry...

Sad

arghh..my car get clamped this early morning..

continuously 2days d..paid so much for the stupid summons...arghhh

spent so much lately..HTC and my samsung ace..shouldnt buy the samsung..

i wanna cry but i couldn't cry out..

how to cheer up??

T.T

CRAP

erm..im having bad gastric now but im still wanna blog a little bit..

yest i went starbucks at 3 two square..when i reached home then i only realised there's a summons again!!

this is from PDRM T.T

there's gonna a big hole in my pocket again..

today kentwin told me vivien got new bf d..

and summore vivien deleted me from her fb..i really wondered why did she do that..

maybe she doesnt wanna relate herself with any of her frens..

it has been a month that i broke off with yang..

time flies..we hadn't really talked to each others for about a month..

even break-up also thru whatsapp..err..im still doing pretty fine though lotsa bad things happened around..

but i dunno how is him now..everytime i tried to talk to him but wat i got was just ignorance..

guess that he doesnt want to be friend with me anymore..

that's sad..

cheer up Esther!!!

headache

Argh..so many works need to do..but Im not in the mood of doing it..Swt...

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Having few true friends is better than having a large network of pretentious friends.

Quality beats Quantity all the time!

April Fools' Day - Pranked call

Omg i got a prank call from so-called mitsubishi officer just now!!!

wtf...it was JONATHAN BEN Yeong Yeong!!!

im gonna post up his pic here and let you all see how naughty he is..

he claimed saying that he's from mitsubishi and want phone interviewed me.

he asked so many stupid questions and told me that i'd just screwed up the job got 3k paid..

somemore asked me to describe myself and tell them about my capability..wtf..

i really told them and i asked for the interview and he patiently explaining that they got 2000applications and once i pass the call interview then there's 2nd round bla bla bla~~~~~

~=.='''~

the most lame part was he acted indian guy to talk to me..

i dunno how he did it but he got lotsa indian frens and chill with them most of the time.

and he stays at bangsar also.

haha

well,this is the stupid dude..dun misunderstand,he aint my bf..just a naughty friend of mine and always think to prank others -.-''' but he's good looking and he's single and available.

to the girls out there,if you want an immature yet a lil bit naughty type bf..

here you go!thats him..jonathan ben Yeong!i guess he'll be very gentle to the ladies hahaha..

the pics above are captured by my lumix digital camera ^^

these are the pics that i edited myself..lol..simply edited with my lousy photoshop skills..

venue - botanical garden,putrajaya..

it was freaking hot and we were all very tired after the half day shooting..i was so nervous lol.

Avril Lavigne - I Love You (Official Music/Full Song) HQ with Lyrics

Jena Lee - J'aimerais Tellement

Graffiti

I think i have addicted to scribble with the apps in my phone now..

maybe this is the best way to express how i feel and my thought!!

sorry peeps..i know maybe u dun like to the see the ugly graffiti.

I want a relationship, not a relationshit!

Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.

I saw a meaningful yet funny quote in Tweeter today..

haha..i dun want to have any relationship nor relationshit right now..

I'm quite satisfied with current situation and i think i just need some friends to crap with me..

I want a relationship, not a relationshit!

my stomach is unwell from morning til now..guess that i ate smthg wrong yesterday :(

things are getting better and suspicious killed with the friend..kit hong..

i didnt talk to you coz i rarely meet you and shit happened from last year september until now..so it made me less interacting with you and we are different class now..

but at least is a good thing that you could be frank with me..

later seng hui kor kor is coming to find me!!! woohoo..a god bro that sayang me for so long time d..dun misunderstand..haha..coz nothing is more than that and i dun need a bf right now..:)

Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm,

but to add color to my sunset sky!

张惠妹 如果你也听说KTV

I'm very sad..why all the unexpected things happened at this moment??

Sad

Today is not a good day for me..

i'm extremely down now :'(

LMFAO - Party Rock Anthem ft. Lauren Bennett, GoonRock

shake yr body and put yr hands up!!!

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts

Simple yet Complicated

Have you ever think "Why is life so complicated?" Some one asked me this question before. And honestly that time I don't have an answer for that question. After a while, I let my self think about this question. Keep myself thinking, what is the best answer for the question. Well, I guess different people will give different answer.

"Why is life so complicated, Why does everything need to be so messy like why cant life be simple, Why do people need to like do what they want even if it would hurt someone, Why do people say things they don't really mean but still say them or if they do mean them, Why do they need to say it. Is life only about money and sex. Why do people need to change all the time and what if someone liked someone better the way they were before and they changed completely but change in a bad way what do you do. If you know someone is getting away from you and your loosing contact with that person then what. What if someone you like does not notice you. what you do if when you look back you don't know where your at no more. You don't know the last time you had a good time with your family and friends with no fights."

I know most of us hope that our life can be more simple and easier than what we face right now. For me it's all about yourself. Life is complicated, that's we call it LIFE. If life always easy and simple, what do you expect you can learn from this life? My little sis also asked me this question long time ago. She asked me why we have to be struggle to get what we want? Why life keep complicated as we grow up? Why we have to think about so many things?

Well babe... Actually, I just can give you my simple opinion. For me, if life were simple, there is nothing we can learn and we can't improve our self to be a better person. Do you think you can learn something if you never get through the real life? As we have to face the hardest way, we maybe did not realize that we learn a lot of things from that. It's hurt but believe me, this pain is one of powerful lesson that teach you to be more strong. So, why are we so scared when life is getting complicated? Believe me, if life is simple there's no fun. ^.^v

Forget bout the person that you like but never notice you. Forget about your tears, forget about people who keep thinking that you never exist or whatever that bother you. All you have to do now is learn...Learn from this complicated situation because you will find a happiness if you can get through all of this. Remember, if life is simple, there's no fun and I bet you, your life is useless if you didn't learn something from your life. :D~ So, stop complaining and stop asking "Why is life so complicated"!!!

complicated

I'm having some complicated feeling right now..It's like worrying smtg bad gonna happens soon..I feel so so so tired at this moment..scare that I pick a wrong move again!oh yeah..this is the second week d..things are get back to normal on me..but I dunno the other side..guess that he never felt anything and nvr give a damn about it..
And I felt so disappointed to a so-called bestie..he's such a stupid..fine..those who never respect me then they don't deserve me as their frens..hey there!i don't need you as my friend la..stupid bastard isolate urself!!!

Pending tasks that i need to complete in this month and reminder for myself~

- FYP

- Management's group project

- FEM's group project

- Photoshooting with Jeff **can't postpone anymore**

- Jogging twice a week

- Go to dance class more often..can't be lazy anymore!!!!

- get one ppl accompany me to Jogoya..:( i need ppl who likes to eat Japanese cuisine.

- Fully utilize my every weekend @ Klang Valley..go somewhere that i've never been to coz i only left 2months here :(

- More outings with friends!!! :)

Bob Marley On How To Love A Woman

You may not be her first, her last or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad and miss her when she’s not there. – Bob Marley

I found this from someone's fb note today..i think he himself also forgot about this quote..

HOW TO LOVE A WOMAN?

This is actually so true..and its one of the mistakes I've always done, and only realised in this relationship - that we shouldn't try and change, or be upset with, the past.

We all have a past, and we have all loved before, but what counts is NOW - what you have together this day, today.

Sing K with my coursemates

last friday i went sing K with my coursemates..and it's friday!

the day we shouldn't crack our head with books and fyp..

so we went to the green box at jusco cheras selatan..

my last K session was at Penang Rexbox Gurney with weiyang..

still rmb it was the first time and the last time we both sang together..lol

so we all actually had fun and we sang til 730pm..

after that we went dinner together @ serdang..

the gang

duet with Mr Seow, the coursemate that helped me a lot in these 4years.

me,wei teng and anderson

we both also TEOH and from Sg Petani.maybe he is another superstar in the future :)